世界的中心

As Annie said, I just woke up from a lovely sweet dream,
though in the end it suddenly turned to be a nightmare and grab me even when I am awake.

I thought it would one day be a happy ending in one of the possible worlds,
however, this world is nothing about semantics, it's pragmatic,
so I should ignore the fucking possible worlds and try to figure out what implicature is behind your words.

Those words are so cruel that I dare not to read them twice,
but how come they occupy my mind and replay again and again...
This is the first time I was hurt so badly, I couldn't imagine you are the one who did this to me.
I was too silly and too childish, and you are just being realistic, so, it's time to wake up.

There's no tears, but endless sorrow around me.
I did love you, but only in past tense.
From now on I am absolutely single,
and I know, after I cry the last time for you, I may become stronger and don't care about you anymore.

But.....not today, not tomorrow, it's the time when I finish all of my essays and exam.
Sorrow came at a wrong time, so I cannot deal with it now.
At this moment, I can only tell you what's in my mind is that...
do cherish the next girl you meet, and I am sure I will find someone who really cherish me.